My Footsteps...

Making Choices

2012-01-02T17:40:00.000+08:00

Life involves of making a lot of choices,
and while making choice, there is a lot of sacrifice that need to be made.
sometimes when u make a sacrifice, you will somehow feel pain or discomfort,
but if the choice is worth the sacrifice, you will enjoy long term blessings compare to your current life.

In my life, there is a lot of choices that i need to make, such as:

My future career
My life partner
My priority in life
My involvements in campus
My ministry
etc

All of these choice are not easy to make, but make God lead and show me the way it should be, bless me with wisdom so i can know what is will in my life to accomplish your wonderful plans in my life, so that i can find overflowing joy in YOU!

My friend, I felt very sad when I look upon your life/blog.
I feel so worry about your life, until my heart also feel sad for you.
I hope you can really find yourself in Jesus that can gives you joy,
In life, we will face a lot of problems, failure, heart-broken, etc...
but hope you can learn how to let go and let God be the center of your life.
I know I can do nothing for you, but just can pray for you as a friend.
I hope you make the correct and right decision/choice,
May this little of the pain may brings blessings to you all life long,
and brings blessing too to the people around you..
Jesus loves you, so do I care for you...
May God bless you~

Temperament quiz

2011-11-21T20:21:00.002+08:00

Just for fun... what do you think i am?

Jialat ah...

2011-11-16T17:43:00.000+08:00

Haih... for a long long time, i didnt write my blog d... i thought i no need to write them, but the complicated feelings inside makes me not feeling well... Here goes...

Last year of studies, new challenges, new problems, new style of living... but still feeling lonely sometimes...
People always thought i'm ok, i'm matured enough, i'm strong, and bla bla bla... So end up, everyone of my friend will think that not need to care about me since i know what i'm doing, and i have car and so many friends around. But actually inside me sometimes, i just wanna rest, i just want some concern, i just want some words of encouragement and need somebody who cares for me... who? who? who?
who is my listener? who is my supporter? who can understands my heart? Who can tap my shoulder and say "well done", "Jiayou!"? or a hug?

During the past, I was the person that doesn't like to share, n like to keeps everything of me inside, but God u taught me how to share my life/ blessings to others, but who can let me share my hard times? My junior? My same badge christian? or who? Izit i'm too lifting myself too high that i see no one? or izit there is really nobody?

Always when i'm down, i'll think myself very stupid! Finding troubles to bear only... 自己找来的麻烦！ Why is me who do the extra mile? Why is me who always care for others more than myself? Why izit I have to do so much while others are so comfortable? Oh Jesus! May you send your angles to care for me and love me. My heart is so tired, stress, and pressured... haih~~~

During this semester, there is a subject name Power Electronic and drive. For this subject, we are there only year that have this subject, mean that the first and the last that take this subject. The lecturer that teach us is from indonesia. The slank how he speak and write english or malay already makes our whole class sweat and blur blur d, moreover there is no notes or slides for the lecture section. The lecturer just write on the white board and explain, the more he explain, the more far he goes, like no main point that we should focus on, until now also like that. Can be said mostly application. Last few week we had a quiz, a 2 hour quiz and it is just 5 percent. One of the question we totally blank because he didn't teach that before, and expect us to know everything. After the quiz my hand and leg totally shaking. Even the one question that we know also cannot finish it well in that 2 hours. And the lecturer say that is just the warm up... Well now, tomorrow is the real test, i totally stressing out... What the Hack that i can study?!? He just give us a long long MicroC coding and expected us to read it? Oh My~

May God you hear my cry~ I'm just a tinny person like a sand to You, but I believe that You loved me and care for me, and You know what is best for me. Show me your love, show me your care and show me your way. May my eyes be focus on You oh Lord, and not let the problem oversize You. Take me with You oh Lord, if is Your will... Take me...

The Dream Giver...

2011-08-19T12:31:00.001+08:00

The Dream Giver Part 1

The Dream Giver Part 2

The Dream Giver Part 3

P2 Problems & Promise

2011-06-12T00:05:00.000+08:00

"We aren't going to have enough to support ourselves."
"My God will supply all your needs according to his riches in glory" (Phil 4:19)
"I'm overwhelmed with all that's happening; I'm not sure how long can I hang on."
"[God's] grace is sufficient for you for power is perfected in weakness"(2 Cor 12:9)
"I know that's what God wants me to do, but I just can't do it. It's too hard."
"I can do all things through [Christ] who strengthens me" (Phil. 4:13)
"I don't want to go through this alone."
"I am with you always" (Matt 28:20)
"I'll never be able to forgive her for what she did."
"If you forgive others for their transgressions, your heavenly Father will also forgive you" (Matt 6:14)
(taken from the Good to Great in God Eyes book)

coming next Planning retreat

2011-04-15T02:51:00.000+08:00

i'm so multi tasking...
God has bless me with so many things, and He will also use it for His kingdom.
i'm a leader for the team,
a coordinator,
an advisor,
an organizer for the planning retreat,
a motivator,
a direction settler,
a speaker,
a servant of God,
a treasurer,
and a driver to fetch them.

I'm not here to boost myself, but just to say:
"My God help me, I need rest! I need YOU!!"
"Make me experience Your Love and Wonderful presence!"
"Make my heart be fire up again! Excited again! To see the Great and marvelous things that You done for us!"
"Make me see the King of Glory, coming down with blaze of light!"
"My one desire is to be close with You, is to love you, and to give all glory unto You!!!"

Seek God face, Dream for God...

2011-03-11T12:50:00.006+08:00

Such a beautiful morning, it was raining heavily, it was so cooling and i have to struggle the temptation of the bed and waked up and go prepare myself to go class on 10am. Soon when i saw my house-mate walking down, they told me that the class just been canceled... The heart was so 'drop down', I was wondering yes! i can go sleep again... But soon I remembered that I advice my friend before in the same case that use that period to spend more time with God. So I went ate my breakfast and truly spend some quite time with God... I didn't do much, just reading the bible while i was eating my breakfast and after that read Good To Great In God's eye book. God has once again reminded me and even spoke to me, me heart beats gets faster and faster(getting excited again). This is some words that reminded me and excited me this morning:

但耶稣的名越发传扬出去，有极多的人聚集来听道，也指望医治他们的病。耶稣却退到旷野去祷告。路5：15-16
那时，耶稣出去，上山祷告，整夜祷告神。。。路6：12

-I was remembered what Uncle Richard had told me that we need to pray, not just normal prayer, but a desperate prayer, with all your hearts and Soul!!! Go to a quiet place, to the hill, to the dessert, to pray, to seek God, to seek His will!!! Many of the times, we are like surrounded with events, needs, agenda, works...etc that makes us away from God, makes our heart gone cold, makes our soul gone tired. Even Jesus needs to spend time praying with God, Why not us?

After that, I take out the book that i haven read finish named Good To Great in God's Eyes and started continue reading it, some of the word inspired me too, such as:
-If Jesus came to you in a vision tomorrow morning, stood at the foot of your bed, and said:" I will make available to you all the resources you need, all the courage you need, and all the power you need. Now dream a great dream that is worthy of me." How would you respond to Him?

How God births Dreams in His people?
Abraham example -God often does not birth dreams in us until we've demonstrated that we'll step out of our comfort zone. (Only after he moved out from his comfort zone did god birth a dream in Him.)
Joseph example - God puts His dream in your heart. (god directly puts a dream in Josept's heart)
Moses example - God allows us to fail in our attempts to accomplish his dream in our own power.
(Moses tried to accomplish his dream in human wisdom and strength doesn't mean God didn't put the dream there to begin with.)
David example - God teaches us through adversity to love the dream-giver more than the dream.
David express his love for God by writing:

Whom have I in heaven but you?

And the earth has nothing I desire besides you.

My flesh and my heart may fail,

but god is the strength of my heart

and my portion forever. (psalm 73: 25-26)

Paul example - God clarifies our calling in times of crisis and often uses our worst failures as the platform of his future fulfillment. ( Paul is a murderer, yet God used him as a powerful missionary.)

We hear Him most clearly when we are desperate for Him to speak.

during i read this, I try to take some quiet time to pray and hear God voice with desperate heart, and at last I heard again, is been so long i miss that voice. U just need to say with a desperate heart and a silence condition saying:

啊爸，父! 孩子在这里，请与我说话~

Seek My Face

Prayer

Do not be discouraged when My answer is..."Not Yet!"

2011-01-03T19:35:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I ask the question

"My Lord, is this your will?"

It's then I hear you answer me,

"My precious Child... BE STILL."

Sometimes I feel frustrated,
Because I think I know what's best
It's then I hear You say to me,

"My Busy Child... Just rest!"

Sometimes I feel so lonely and
I think I'd like a mate.
Your still small voice gets oh
so clear and says,

"My Child... Please wait!"

Then He says this

"I know the plans I have for you,

the wondrous things you'll see;

If you can just be patient,

and put your trust in Me.

I've plans to draw you closer.

I've plans to help you grow.

There's much I do you cannot see

and much you do not know.

But know this, Child...

I LOVE YOU.

You are Precious to Me.

Before I formed you in the womb,

I planned your destiny.

I've something very special

I hope for you to learn.

The gifts you cannot earn.

They come without a price tag,

but not without a cost;

at Calvary, I gave My Son,

so you would not be lost.

Rest Child, and do not grow weary

of doing what is good.

I promise I'll come back for you

just like I said I would.

Your name is written on my palm,

I never could forget;

Therefore,

do not be discouraged

when My answer is..."Not Yet!"

What's Your Keirsey Personality Type?

2010-11-18T02:33:00.002+08:00

Guardian Inspector

You are observant, cooperative, directive and attentive. The one word that best describes you is Superdependable. Whether at home or at work, you are extraordinarily persevering and dutiful, particularly when it comes to keeping an eye on the people and products you are responsible for. In your quiet way, you see to it that rules are followed, laws are respected, and standards are upheld.

While not directly seeking leadership positions, you are often placed in such roles. You build a reputation for reliable, stable, and consistent performance that inspires others to select you to lead. You use your past experience and your factual knowledge in your decision making. Because you usually perform your work without much flourish or fanfare, the dedication you bring to your work can go unnoticed and unappreciated.

While not as talkative as Supervisors (ESTJs), you are still highly sociable, and are likely to be involved in community service organizations, such as Sunday School, Little League, or Boy and Girl Scouting, that transmit traditional values to the young. Like all Guardians (SJ's), you hold dear your family social ceremonies-weddings, birthdays, and anniversaries - although you tend to be shy if the occasion becomes too large or too public. Generally speaking, you are not comfortable with anything that gets too fancy. Your words tend to be plain and down-to-earth, not showy or high-flown; your clothes are often simple and conservative rather than of the latest fashion; and your home and work environments are usually neat, orderly, and traditional, rather than trendy or ostentatious. As for personal property, you usually choose standard items over models loaded with features, and you often try to find classics and antiques.

Famous Inspectors include Queen Elizabeth II, Harry S Truman, Warren Buffet, and John D Rockefeller.

Run to you always...

2010-10-26T00:43:00.001+08:00

Run To You
Performed by Shane Clements Band

Standing on the edge of broken and lonely
Feels like my fear has got a hold on me
I am looking for a way out
But my mind is full of doubt

I am sick and suffering
With these burdens that I carry
They’re like chains on my hands and feet
Will You surround my life and take them away from me?

I run to You
You set my heart on fire
You make my soul alive
And turn my darkness into light
I run to You
You fill me with Your breath
Hope for my brokenness
And You rescued me from death
I run to You, I run to You

Faith is hard to find
So many things it could hide behind
But now I’m standing at the cross
As tears roll down my face
I beg for Your forgiveness
And Your wonderful embrace

I see my broken reflection
I’m sick and tired of my obsessions
I see my broken reflection
I’m sick and tired of my obsessions

It is by grace we are saved
Because of Your love we’ve been redeemed
Through Your life and suffering
We’ve been set free

Problem and solution...

2010-10-21T18:36:00.001+08:00

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

I confess, i've sin again God!!!
I'm weak, i need God's help,
i've fail, i've drop into temptation again,
and i've wasted my time so much...
is so embarrassing!!!!
But still i have to face it!!!
From now on, i'll have a different view of it,
i'll hate it as how much God hates it!!!
i'll cover myself with God's love, and
i'll totally surrender unto God....
Thank you God for dying for my sins...
i'm not worth it and i don't deserve it
but by your grace,
i'm cleans, i'm whole again...
Now Jared! Get up! and set up your armors!!!
Be strong!!!

Human is so sinful!!!

2010-09-29T05:08:00.000+08:00

Haih.... Human is so damn sinful!!!
All the human should be in Hell if Jesus didn't came to save us!!!
how do u view sin?
God really hated those 奸淫的行为!!!
Those people should go to hell!!!!
i wants to tell Ms. X that you are just a sex toy!!!
Don't continue those act!!!
and i wants to tell Mr. Y i looked down on you!!!
i don't have this kind of friend!!!
u sucks!!!
i wants to tell both of you that both of you are really
disturbing!!!!
And both of you will face a big disaster next time!!!
and don't even think that i'll help u....
SHIT man!!!! Bastard!!!!
Arrgggggggggggggg...
Haih..
Sorry for my rough words...
Is just to express my feelings...
I hope someone will pray for me...
I'm weak without God's strength...
tired....

Thinking great thoughts

2010-09-07T01:58:00.001+08:00

Think great thought about God.

Oh, the depth of the riches of the wisdom

and the knowledge of God!

How unsearchable His judgements,

and His paths beyond tracing out!

"Who has known the mind of the Lord?

Or who has been His counselor?"

"Who has ever given to God,

that God should repay him?"
For from Him and through Him and to Him are all things.

To him be the glory forever! Amen. (Romans 11:33 - 36)

Think great thought about yourself.

The Lord your God is with you,

He is mighty to save.

He will take great delight in you,

He will quiet you with His love,

He will rejoice you with singing. (Zephaniah 3:17)

-If you thought about yourself as the object of the eternal God's love,

regardless of whether you have your act together today,

your self-perception will improve drastically to great!

Think great thought about others.

"The Lord does not look at the things man looks at.

Man looks at the outward appearance,

but the Lord looks at the heart." (1Samuel 16:7)

-see people as how God sees them, but not caught up in external appearance,

status success, or possessions.

Think great thought about life.

"If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself

and take up his cross daily and follow me.

For whoever wants to save his life will lose it,

but whoever loses his life for me will save it.

What good is it for a man to gain the whole world,

and yet lose or forfeit his very self? (Luke 9:23-25)

- "He is no fool who gives what he cannot keep

to gain what he cannot lose." -Jim Elliot-

Think great thought about future.

"'I know the plans I have for you,'declares the Lord,

'Plans to prosper you and not harm you,

plans to give you hope and a future.'" (Jeremiah 29:11)

-God is sovereign, and He has plans not only for the universe but also for you personally.

That doesn't mean your life will be problem-free, but it does mean you don't have to worry

about whether those problems will thwart God's purposes for you.

Worry and anxiety and not great thoughts; Faith in God's promise is.

Think great thought about the past.

"Forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead,

I press on toward the goal for the prize

of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus" (Phil 3:13 - 14)

- The psalmist says that our sins are removed from us as far as the east is from the west

(Psalms 103:12)

Don't let your pass crippled your future.

Think great thought about the challenges.

"Consider it all joy, my brethren,

when you encounter various trials,

knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance.

And let endurance have its perfect result,

so that you may be perfect and complete,

lacking of nothing"(James 1:2 -4)

- That's a radically different way to think, but if that thought drives us

when we face a trial, our emotions, behaviors, and consequences will

look more different than if our minds follow their natural, unhealthy course.

When our minds are filled with great thoughts,

our lives eventually bear great fruits.

(Adapt from the book "Good to Great in God's eyes" by Chip Ingram)

When is this gonna over?

2010-09-06T19:53:00.000+08:00

Why is all those things keeps coming on me?
Why is everytime i'll see the thing that i shouldn't?
Why is it temptation always grabs my heart?
Is this my weakness?
Or izit every human's weakness?
or izit a lesson that You wanted me to learn?
Izit there is more to come?
This dessert is really not easy to go thru... especially alone...
I'm weak Lord! Help me...
I want to be what You want me to be, by your strength but not mine...
like the Jesus said before:
“只因不法的事增多，许多人的爱心才渐渐的冷淡了。
惟有忍耐到底的，必然得救。（马太 24：12-13）

Lord, i pray that my love inside me will not 冷淡下来
May my love will always be refill from YOU,
because not other things can fill my heart other that YOU...
I want to be with You forever...

又哭了。。。

2010-06-27T17:11:00.000+08:00

有些人说，男人流血不流泪，是真的吗？或许那些是铁人Iron man吧？！

我不晓得为什么，一旦进了大学，就学会哭了。是因为朋友哭？为了学业哭？为了爱情哭？为了未来哭？为了失败哭？。。。

都不是。。。

生为一个基督徒，我进大学好像进了战场一样，又好像沙漠一样，孤独，无助，软弱，跌倒，被伤害，疲惫，失望，受创伤，和种种问题是没有人可以理解的。。。

有时候我在想，是不是我太笨呢？还是太傻？被人占便宜也不知道，死命付出而不求回报，有机会也不保握，眼睁睁的让她溜去，受伤还要扮坚强，每次只会做那些多余而没人会去做的事。。。你真傻呀，浩智！

我相信你们都错了！在人看为愚拙，在上帝眼中看为好的，我所做的一切都是值得的。
我相信，你们要先求他的国和他的义，这一切都比加给你们了。而不是顺从自己的私欲和情欲行事。
这是我的使命，这是我的看见，这就是我！

很多朋友都会问：为什么不要找女朋友？我都会回答他们：时候还没到...
这一场战争还没有结束，还没有完成，所以无力去寻找和陪伴我的令一半。

只有上帝了解我的心情，我的难处。。。
每一次，当我参加什么赞美敬拜之夜，每当一唱出我的心声，每当我感受到上帝的同在，我的心就会向上帝敞开，而哭了出来！不顾身边别人的眼光，满脸泪水的陶醉在圣灵的感动下。呼喊着：我爱你，上帝！

而每当我哭后，我会觉得我舒服很多，也好像从新得力一样。。。
因上帝已经的医治我心灵的受伤和疲惫了。。
好像上帝所应许的：

那等候耶和华的比从新得力。他们必如鹰展翅上腾；
他们奔跑却不困倦，行走却不疲乏。（以赛亚书40：31）

我几次流离，你都记数；
求你把我眼泪装在你的皮袋里。
这不都记在你册子上吗？
。。。
神帮助我，这是我所知道的。（诗篇 56：8 - 9）

我爱你！依然还是爱你，耶稣！:''''''')

How do we heal our land?

2010-04-19T01:18:00.000+08:00

Our land can be healed through Jesus Christ. We can begin accomplishing a healing through true repentance if we do the following: (a) humble ourselves (b) pray, (c) seek Jesus, (d) turn from their wicked ways, and then we will hear from heaven, we will be forgiven, and our land will be healed
http://willie-writing.blogspot.com/2008/02/how-do-we-heal-our-land_14.html

Vacancy

2010-01-31T18:08:00.000+08:00

Vacancy for Accountability partner:

Requirements:
- Gender is not a problem
- Someone who loves God also
- Having same vision as mine
- Willing to spend time sharing or accountable to each other ( is better if studying in UTeM or nearby me )
- Have leadership skills ( so that we can coach and help each other up )

if you have 4 out of 5 criteria above, please don't feel hesitate to call me =)
( Oh God! Please prepare me one... just one enough... )

HABITS

2010-01-31T17:54:00.000+08:00

last saturday during my youth fellowship, a pastor shared this (i forgot the pastors name already paiseh) about our Christian lifestyle HABITS that we should live out....

H - Hang time with God ( Every moment of your life )
A - Accountability partner ( To be accountable with what the thing you do and the things you want to do)
B - Bible Memorizing ( To let God's words help us when we are needed )
I - Involvement in church ( To have fellowship and work with groups of Christian together. )
T - Train your Faith ( By sharing gospel to others, giving offering to God, and to help others)
S - Study scripture ( Understand God's word more but not just the surface meaning)

We are the salt and the light of the world, ( not we must be the salt n light )... As the salt and light, we must do our part, if salt is useless then it will be thrown on the road to let people to step it, and same for the light, if light is hidden under a pillow, it can't shine the room, but if we lift it high above, so that everyone can see the brightness of us. The second coming of Jesus is near, so to save or be save while you can, the world is full of disasters and things that mention in the bible, awake guyz, Awake!!!

Tank《如鹿切慕溪水》

2010-01-20T22:42:00.000+08:00

中文版-Tank吕建忠《如鹿切慕溪水》-As The Deer - 应当赞美！基督教中英文诗歌中文版英文版赞美诗歌 Hillsong 你们要赞美耶和华 Lyric - 博客大巴
神啊
我的心切慕祢
如鹿切慕溪水
惟有祢是我心所爱
我渴慕来敬拜祢
祢是我的力量盾牌
我的灵单单降服与祢
惟有祢是我心所爱
我渴慕来敬拜祢

中文版/英文版 Lyrics:
英文版《As the Deer》歌词

As the deer panteth for the water
So my soul longeth after thee
You alone are my hearts desire
And I long to worship thee

Chorus
You alone are my strength my shield
To You alone may my spirit yield
You alone are my hearts desire
And I long to worship thee

You're my friend and You are my brother,
Even though you are a king.
I love you more thank any other,
So much more than anything.

I want You more than gold or silver,
Only You can satisfy.
You alone are the real joy Giver,
And the apple of my eye.

SP MT '09

2009-11-25T14:31:00.001+08:00

This time going this MT is a really a dirrerent experience for me, due to i have to organise it and plan4most of it...

Initially, i really don't have enough time to plan about the mission trip, Our staff is not available with us,we didn't have our prayer profile there, and we have to meet on skype everytime, i remember it was just about a month onli for me to plan up everything, and it was the before the exam week...
alots of assignments n presentation need to pass up, alot of thing need to be settle, alot of contact need to be done, and thus pressure n stress comes down on me. Moreover, the staff also very busy on their bible study class until no time to meet me until my exam wanna starts d onli can meet me...

It was a hard time for me as i need to prepare for my exams n prepare for the MT, and also need to accompany my friend to study also, i feel like already do alot of things, but i feel like i doing ntg like that, cos face alot of problems...

For this Mt, God really teaches me the lesson of 交托, because God wan me to learn that we do all this by His strength, by His plans, and not ours (as i hv prayed b4 to hand this Mt unto the hands of God, but i still cant let go). God even make me sick during the exam period, i was so down and i complain to God Y does things like this happen to me in this kind of situation??? And after the next day, my sickness slowly cured, and i finally understand that God wanted me to have a rest, because if if i'm not sick, i;ll be keep worried about so many things... As the days come near to the trip, i gonna face 3major exams continueous 3days, plus some problem need to be settle from my team member,is like wah!! So hard to get thru...

So when the MT comes, i was like hand everything to God, so many thing we havent do, so many thing we havent plan, and so many people we don't who are they...

But with God grace...

We still manage to know each other well, and organise every program well, althou there is some problems due to most of them are new, but overall is still ok...

during the MT,there still some miscommunication happen with some of the church leaders, but thank God not much problems that stopped us, we still manage to reach out to others and get some PRCs...

At once during our ministry time, we became飞虎队， all inside the van, follow some teenagers, and when then target is lock, we find a strategic place to stop, and we all 'Go Go Go!!!', and approach those 7 teenagers that came bck from playing basketball, and thank God all of them PRC!!! Wooohhhh!!!
So exciting experience!!!

Haiyo... the sad thing is.. this book above gone d... the book which all the memories n blessings inside.. I hope i can get it back..

我靠着那加给我力量的，凡事都能做！

i just wanna thank y almight God for all His blessings, for leading me, lastly, during this mission trip, we get to watch the movie called the pilgrim's progress, is such a motivational movie, the whole MT is like just main for this day...

i rite here really wanna thank everyone that is involve in this trip, i'm glad to work with you all throughtout the week, is really joyful that God can bring us together and serve together...

Mission Trip doesn't ends here, but the real mission trip is in the place where we are... Let us continue to be light n Salt of the world, and follow Christ whereever n whenever we are..

God bless u guys!!!

The story of the Boiling Water..

2009-11-10T15:55:00.000+08:00

from my indonesia friend Van Basten Tambunan
Boiling Water
One child complained to his father about his life and ask why life is so hard for him. He does not know how to deal with and almost gave up. He was tired to fight. It seems every time one problem is completed, new problems arise.

His father, a chef, took her to the kitchen. He filled 3 pots with water and put it on the fire. After the water in these pots boil. He put carrots in the pan first, the egg in the second pot, and he put the coffee powder in the pan last. He let it boil without saying a word. The child is silent and waited impatiently, wondering what he was doing his father. After 20 minutes, the father put the fire out. He set aside the carrots and put them in a bowl, picked up eggs and put them in another bowl, and pour the coffee in another bowl.

Then he asked his son, "What do you see, son?" "Carrots, eggs, and coffee," replied the boy. Her father took her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. Her father then asked him to take an egg and break it. After throwing his skin, he found a boiled egg is hardened. Finally, her father asked her to sip the coffee. She smiled as she tasted its rich aroma. After that, the boy asked, "What does it mean, Father?" He explained that each had faced the same adversity, boiling water, but each reacted differently.

The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. But after boiled, carrots become soft and tender.

Egg had been fragile. Thin shell protecting its liquid interior. But after the boiling water, its inside became hardened.

The ground coffee beans were unique. After being in the boiling water, they changed the water. "Where are you including?," Said his father. "When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or coffee?"

How about you? Are you the carrot that seems hard, but with pain and adversity do you wilt and become soft and lose your strength.

Are you the egg, which starts with a malleable heart? With a dynamic spirit, but after a death, heartbreak, divorce, or dismissal becomes hard and stiff. From the outside looks the same, but are you bitter and tough with a heart and soul of rigid?

Or are you like the coffee bean? The bean changes the hot water, something that causes pain, to achieve maximum flavor at a temperature of 100 degrees Celsius. When the water reaches the temperature of the hottest, the coffee was delicious. If you like the coffee bean, when things are at their worst, you will be better and make things better around you.

Dunno y...

2009-10-26T23:48:00.002+08:00

haih..
Dunno y yesterday (25/10/2009) will like that..
i sat b4 my laptop, marking my team member's testimony,
then chatting wif leslie... In a sudden, my heart feels heavy,
my heart pump til very hard, and very sour, like a needle piercing
thru my heart, feel so suffering, feel so pressure inside me,
feel so stress, feel like giving up, don care everything,
duwan anyone to encourage me anymore! because it sounds like pushing me again!
Don ask what i've done in my campus, i feel like i've done nothing!
i wanna let everything go and don bother anymore!!!!
AAAAHHHhhhhhh.....

after i'm like so depress, til like die people, so i ask my friend
to sing a song to me, is so ridiculous, but my friend still sing it,

fan lao ku zhong dan | Online recorder
althou not as those professional singer, but that time she send it to me,
althou is quite feel like laughing, but heart touch n cure by the voice
that she sings..

then after that i was like awaken, and sat back infront of my laptop, put on earphone, and sing some praise songs to God, and also express my pressure
inside of me out...

after that today, i walk back with God, and i found that everything
happen yesterday was satan's lies!!! satan attacks when i'm tired and stress,
so dear christian! please stand firm, find a group of friends,
if possible don be alone. You will be attack easily!!!

the fall makes me feel more stronger!!! Halleluyah!
Thanks to God!!

"You Are Loved (Don't Give Up)"

2009-10-05T22:54:00.000+08:00

Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
When your heart's heavy
I...I will lift it for you

Don't give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you
I...I will break it for you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

Don't give up
It's just the hurt that you hide
When you're lost inside
I...I will be there to find you

Don't give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you
I...I will shine to guide you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

You are loved
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
Don't give up
Every one needs to be heard
You are loved

Reminder for me!!!

2009-09-28T01:30:00.002+08:00

i Think is time for me to change my tire(wheel)... because my heart like that tire(疲倦) already... God please give me a suitable place to stop, or a rest station to rest, i duwan to stop anywhere, because may get accident if i suddenly stop, or if i stop beside the road also useless, no suitable things tat i needed to help me...

Love Letter ^^

2009-09-18T12:44:00.004+08:00

OH GOD!
The great and almightly one,

You created this heaven and earth so beautifully and You also created me so beautifuly too..

I Love you God!!!
My soul longs for You oh Lord!
You are like the treasure that i seek, so precious and valueable,
You are like the sun, Shines my way when i walk in the darkness,
You are my shepherd, cares me, protect me, and hugs me in ur arms,
When i seek You, my energy is restored, my heart feels joyful, my mind feels peaceful,and my soul feels refreshing...
You are my stronghold, my strength and my shield!!我患难中的帮助!
You are all i need Lord...

Althou i sometimes sin against You, run away from You, but in your eyes, i'm always the precious once. You even find me back in Your arm when i'm down and You pick me up when i fall down. You are my heavenly dad, You knows each step i takes, u knew each thoughts i make, You guide me,You lead me when i goes the wrong way, You gives me strength to face all those obstacle,You knows me since i'm in my mother's womb, and u already have plans for my life, You even counts each n every hair i have, You are my Lord my God my Saviour n my everything...

I cant live without You!!!

Love, Jared...

loneliness...

2009-08-24T19:44:00.004+08:00

To Jesus:

Since the 1st semester, deep down inside my heart, dunno y sometimes will feel lonely, feel tired, and feel like having at least a gang of Christian fren can hv go anywhere else wif me...

Last Sat when i was goin to my church fellowship, walking down to wait for the van to fetch me, an indian fren pass over me n he chat wif me then he asked me "Hey where u goin?", i answered "i am goin to church lor..." then he said" Wah! u so good ah, so church...". Tat time i was thinking" hmm...like tat also good ah? or izit i'm the onli person who reli goes to church?" swt...

God!!! plz send me an angel... i need someone tat reli can understands me n can serve wif me if can... I duwan2b a lonely ranger!! A lonely ranger gets tired easily wan leh...

i need Help... i need care... i need support... i need Love... i need best friends here... i need a partner in my journey...

Hope my prayers You will answers, because You are the one who reli knows me better than others do...
Amen!!!

Sick Sick Sick....

2009-08-09T00:25:00.003+08:00

Reali dunno y i keep sick?
started from end of july, before my vision night
on that morning i got sore throat so i went visit
my campus clinic, then after the event,
i straight away got fever, it was so hot in my body,
and i felt so cold outside, so i close myself wif my
sleeping bag til morning, theni go visit the doctor
again. Reli thx God, me nearly got quarantine, cos my
temperature raise til 37.7 onli, but if reach 38, then
i'll straight away got quarantine d. So that day, the
doctor give me a MC for 2 days, ask me to self quarantine
at my own hostel. So as my fren fetch me back to hostel
i brought 100plus, watermelon n bread for my lunch, then
i sleep. Then later thank God i was fine d at that night,
wanna also thank my fren that provide me the cooling patch
to stick on my head. Then the next day the campus was announce
to close a week, so i was hapi that finally i can go back
home to have a nice rest.

But starting from monday,i start
have different weird symtoms. After that sunday night, tat
me n my bro was attack by so many mosquitos that dunnno
come from where. Then on the monday morning, my ass down to
my leg all aching, my vein all like so '酸', til i cant sit
properly n sleep properly the next night, tues also the same,
til wed my mo, heard me cough n brought me to clinic, so i also
told the doctor bout this, n the doctor give some medicine for me,
so after i take the medicine, the next day, my leg all ok d, but
now my lung started to pain d, dunno y? and my cough is like getting
worse, initially i juz tot it was the effect to let the phlegm to
come out, but mostly as the more serious the cough no phlegm comes out,
then til friday, after when i went to UKM's clc prayer meeting, after
that i decided to stay for a night, but on that night, the same thing
happened to me, FEVER!!! it was so suffering that night,
so hot n so cold, my body was like burning til i felt i'm in hell,
then it was a voice asked me2sleep outside, so then i take my
sleeping bag n went outside to sleep. It was better at the living room,
cos i dint open the fan, and so i close myself with the sleeping bag,
wah my skin was like burning, i expect i'll sweat after i close myself,
but not one drop of sweat came out! That night i keep complain to God,
and i keep pray to God to heal me... Then few min later, I go take some
water n drink, then go sleep again, then onli my sweat came out...
So i get to sleep for a few hour, then was awake, considering whether
howi gonna drive back with this situation? i was so dizzy n feel like
wanna vomit, that moment, i feels like the time goes so slow,
when everytime i close my eyes to sleep n i awake, it juz past
a few min onli, and the clock ticking i feel so annoying tat time,
i keep pray hard to God, n thinking how to goo back like tis,
but if dint go back also sooner or later hv2go back ah,
so i decided to go back...

i planed to go MCCC office for a meeting that day, so i decided to
fetch Syah Zhuan to follow my car back n follow me go. So on that
morning i've plan to fetch him on 7am, i reli pray hard, because
i scare i will vomit in car, this scene let me remember of the last
year MCCC JB anniversary and i was seriously sick n i go also. This
time is not the same, i was driving, i'm so scare i got accident,
so suddenly that time got a voice said, y not ask Syah Zhuan to drive?
so after i go fetch him, i ask him to drive, and he agree...

On the way back, we also were quite blur on the route back, i tot
he knows the way, so we miss alot of goin to Klang junction, then
onli he asked me is it this way? huh?!! Then, reali thank God i don feel
scare in my heart, i feel peace,maybe i'm too tired d gua^^ then i
told him to follow Petaling jaya sign, i kept think y din c
Klang sign anymore ah? Then we keep go, follow the Petaling sign,
then suddenly I was so happy after i saw Mid valley, then i know
that we are following the right way back thru federal highway.
Then after the straight drive, we reach home safely,
me n Syah Zhuan was so happy, i was like phew...!!!
this day that is 8 august is the longest night i've ever felt!
i think within this year la...

Holiday (part2)

2009-07-06T18:12:00.006+08:00

Phew...what a breath taking holiday O.o...

it started easy from the private school camp,
i as a teacher for one of the group have to guide n help
those participants( those so call problem students),
me also get some reminder or can say lesson from the
speaker cos i think i also a problem student that always
wasting time also, keep go yum cha n playing wif friends..
i'm glad can go there help n influence their life by my sharing
and God's work...

After when back home...

The next day, i have to pack up goin beruas d...
So i go UKM clc stay a night as David ask me to go do preparation,
after reaching there, i heard that many of them cant join
this visitation, onli me, David, Bok Wan, ZheKai, BEi Jun& Chiu Ling.
Can u c most of them r not from UKM.. haha^_^
The most suprise thing is that did u notice for those who
in our team last time, Chiu Ling is not in our team last time,
n moreover, what worries me is that Chiu Ling is not a christian.
Wah! i'm so scare that satan will bring spiritual warfare to her
and to us also. But after the 1day2nite trip,thank God everything
goes well in God hands..
i'm glad this time can have time to go back to beruas to visit them,
because i thought that if other time i think i cant d..
i'm glad can c what God has done in beruas, Jesus' love has touch
so many life of them, until when we tell them we wanna go visit
them, they are so exicited til cum to find us at the moment we reach
the church there...After tat they some of them are so excited to ask us
go visit their house.. I'm reli looking forward to c how God will
change Beruas in his ways...
After went back few days, need go to my Uni faci training d..
so many things need to say bout tat, but the summary is busy, tired,
and exhausted lor..
to be continue la.. ( if i got time2write la..)
"wah!! keep out of home go here go there, so busy!!! " My family said that..
but for me, Doing God works is more interesting then doin man's work..

Busyfull Holiday...(part 1)

2009-06-02T20:28:00.008+08:00

This holiday is reli a undescribable holiday...

First is Student Congress.. (first week)

this is our team n staff...

In this student congress, it is so different than any other camps or trips,

God let me see a different view of this work on me...

He let me see a nation view, that is do God's work base on the whole

Malaysia but not limited in campus onli..

i've also learn alot of strategies inspired from strategies from different country

in southeast asia.

alot of the devoltional talks also stir my spirit once again lift up n

burn bright for God, is like God speaking to me. God like solve my problems

that i've face in my campus, wif my friends, and give me ideas to overcome it...

besides that, God also given me a great team, a NSLT...=)

i'm happy to see great peoples doing the same thing like me(同路人),

and some leaders that reli doing a great job for God!!!

happy to be in the team!!

Then i-connect2009, Skudai (2 weeks)

Our i-connect phase 1 media workshop team... m-genaration Rockz!!!

We have done a short movie named E=MC2, is about the Creative Evangelism..

watch it belowi-connect phase 2...

during this mission trip, i get some different experience also compare to

2008 i-connect. During the theme talk and the journey with the giants also

give me alot of reminder and support...

plus this mission trip i put more effort in guiding those new participants in sharing gospel n etc..

it a tough 3 weeks continueous trip, because a sick thru the 3 weeks, but i have to thank God cause everything gone smoothly in the mission trip... Next up, stay at Cinyi's house for fewdays doing our planing, then notice that my skin suddenly got so many red dots 0.0...(izit H1N1!?...) so the next day james brought me2go c doctor, gave me alot of watermelon to eat plus a big bottle of 100plus to drink (thanks james yeo!!)... Is nice to stay in james hse, they treat me well.. thanks ya to James/Cinyi 's family.. God Bless ya!!

Then finally can go home n rest for onli 1 weeks... home sweet home.^_^

then after one week.... to be continue...^_^

The Sermon..

2009-05-03T17:50:00.002+08:00

Today morning ( 3-5-2009) during church, Rev Yeo really gives a good sermon, not because good in wad he says, but is like what he is preaching is comes from God and it pointing the problems me and all the youth face...

The sermon topic: 基督徒于世俗洪流的抗衡

The 3 main things that we youth have to care of:

1) Our Mind
~ The trend in this world is influencing the mind of people nowadays especially the youth nowadays. Those influence factor like Money, Sex, branded Material, internet, Games, Dramas, Movies and things that satisfy their selfish desire...
~ These trend just can make us far from God and will reject God.
~ our mind and eyes will be blind by the trends in this world, when we get blind, we will lost in this world and follow what the world brought us to which is call trend.
~ if we are not strong in our Christian faith, the trend(Satan's world/ religion) will conquer or mind.

~ We must be rooted in the word of God to counter the trend of this world. Only the bible can be the guide/ manual to our life, because it is the truth of God.

2) Devil's Power

~ The Devil's Power is in the form of tradition , culture, religion that will controls people to pray and worship them.
~ He who is in us is GREATER than he who outside us!!
~ One word to win against the satan is to call upon the name of Jesus!!
~But how much faith you have to call upon the name of Jesus?
~How close is our relationship with God?
~How often do we renew the word of God inside us?
~God loves us, but do we have faith in Him?

3)Strength

~ We humans if alone one person, we hv limited strength, so God created a couple (man/woman) so that human hv mutual care and relationship.
~ Satan nowadays is attacking those families
- Satan is very success in making those family break up
~ Family is the main support from God towards us, but sadly nowaday family relationships already become worse, not like last time can sit together n eat dinner happily...
~ Father juz know how2earn money2feed the house, mother juz noe how2do household, and child juz know how to study hard to get good results.
~ is this what the bible describe bout family?
~ As result in this, family nowadays cant be the support 依靠 to the youth today.
~ So believers become lonely outside the world facing the spiritual world.
~ Those youngsters in this world know that somethings is wrong, but they already don't have strength to withstand and encounter it, thus they will juz let the world lead them to the dark world...
~ Parent should pray & care for their children frequenly, always help them spiritually, and give the some mental support, because family is the greatest source of strength for young people to enable them to continue walk in the right path in the truth. Amen!!!

This sermon really like God is remind n tell me stg.. i hope it will remind n help u also la...

Prayer Retreat....

2009-04-25T14:40:00.008+08:00

First of all, me wanna thank God for giving me this chance2join i-youth prayer retreat, i can meet back Set Foon(still the same), uncle William(funny alot), aunty Nelly( from curly hair become straight hair), Uncle Peter( still vr funny, but last year more funny la), Sis kelly( vr funny and cooked well tis time haha..), and last but not least uncle Richard(advice me alot tis time).

Oh ya...

i also met the 6 new i-youth members. Ester, Xiao Yen, Hui Fang, Jason, Jia Shen, and Wei Chern. So glad i can hear their experience from this i-youth also, feel that God is so bless our batch(2008) of i-youth members. Because God has let us learn alot of thing during the challenges and troubles that v face. And this year's i-youth seems comfortable and smooth, but anyhow, God let them learn different things compare2us..

In this prayer retreat, we have done alot of things such as

Team Building...

Prayer journey..

BBQ..

and many other things la..haha:)

this Prayer retreat helped me alot, it reli gives me the time2stay close2God again,

is like get charging battery lo..

from the prayer station, it reminds me alot of thing in my life, such as:

Are we building our life on the Rock(Jesus) or the sand? (luke 6: 46-49)
~when our life is build on the rock, our life is stable when the big wind and rain comes.

~when our life is build on the sand, our life will easy to collapse.

it reminds me tat in everything we do, if we do it for God, then it will have an eternal value,

but when we invest our life in those earthly things like keep playing games, finding girls, chasing drama, etc, one day, it will become nothing..

Are we thirst for God? or we are thirst for the things around us?(john 4:13)

~Jesus says:" Come to me and i will give you water of life, so that u may not thirst.

my life should thirst for God but not other things, because others thing beside that will never satisfy my needs, but in God, i can get the satisfaction.

Are my dreams are the dreams that glorify God or Are they God's dream also?

~我们若照祂的旨意求什么，祂就听我们，这是我们向祂存坦然无惧的心。

既然知道祂听我们一切所求的，就知道我们所求于祂的，无不得着。（约一5：4-5）

So whatever things we do, do it like doing for God, not for men!!

and don't feel stress and burden bout it, cos God will provide u strength to do His work...

All under God's prefect plan.

Uncle Richard also given me also of motivation, advice, and encouragements. He is my prayer buddy during the prayer journey, and i hear alot of great stories from him that wad God has done thru him. Besides that he also said that he will try to make some time out of his busyness n help my ministry here. I was pleased to hear that... I feel that God sure will bless those ppl who honour Him and do his works..

lastly...

Goin to this prayer retreat trip was totally under God plan,

it was during my exam month, and it was so perfect tat i hv a one week break during that exam month. I call Set Foon on one morning few days before the Prayer retreat, and i juz say that i wanted2visit them, and so she juz say "come join out Prayer retreat la..". i was so hapi n joyful after hearing that news. It was like God answered my prayer and God knows my needs, because i keep complain to Joyce that i admire she hv a team that can go prayer retreat and fellowship together. Haha...

My Aim after this prayer retreat is to change my lifestyle to make good use of every second God has given me. For when i can use my time well, i can do God's work well also... but this semester is coming to an end, but however, next year i will make a new start!!!

Gambateh ya!!! Hope all my friend will pray4me and keep me accountable to u all la..( means that u all can ask for my progress of doin and pray for me...)

看到流星的那一夜...

2009-04-19T14:59:00.006+08:00

在那奇妙的晚上, 当我从大专团契回着。。。

心里面有一半开心又一半不开心的感觉，

真的是很乱。。

原因是因为我被选为大专团契的门徒于布道委，

和心里在想着对基督徒朋友的失望。。。

（或许我对基督徒的要求比较高吧。。）

所以，我就决定去陪我朋友看星星。。

那时候只有我，Vincy , 和玉婷，

躺在一个很大的空地望着天，

就看见一片很美丽的天空挂满了星星，

一闪一闪的，是多么的漂亮。

看见这美丽的作品，我什么东西也渐渐的把它放在一旁了，

心里就想着这首歌，

你说阴天代表你的心情，

雨天更是你对生命的反应，

你说每天生活一样平静，

对于未来没有一点信心，

情爱朋友你是否曾经，

曾经观看满天的星星，

期待有人能够了解你心，

能够爱你使你一样更新。

耶稣能够！叫一切都更新，

耶稣能够！体会你的心情，

耶稣能够！改变你的曾经，

耶稣爱你！耶稣疼你！

耶稣能造，一个全新的你。

我躺着躺着，就有另一个朋友来了，

聊下聊下，突然！！！

看见一旬光飞过，就在我眼目的角落飞过，

那是一到很亮的流星阿！！

那，应该也是我的第一次吧，看到流星。

心里就突然的兴奋起来了，哇！！！！

烦恼一切都忘掉了。

然后，突然我的好友晓薇就call 我，

开心的心情又加上能与我的老朋友聊，

整个心情都好很多了。

然后，心想着：

天离地有多高呢？

东离西有多远呢？

就让我想起了：

天离地有何等的高，

祂的慈爱向敬畏祂的人也是何等的大！

东离西有多远，

祂叫我们的过犯离我们也有多远！（诗103：11-12）

那一夜，我看见那云就像幕布一样，

又开又关，我们也看着不一样的星星。

我们人生也是这样，

会有不同的一幕，不同的一场戏，不一样的角色，

不一样的问题，不一样的人演。。

对于未来的我，什么都不知道，

我只肯定和放心的是，

那爱我的上帝永远都会带领着我走过这一切。

就象牧羊人带着祂的羊一样。

祂也很爱你！！你要让他带吗？

what YOU say and what GOD says

2009-04-05T18:12:00.002+08:00

You say: ?'It's impossible' ? God says: All things are possible (Luke 18:27)

You say: 'I'm too tired' ? God says: ?I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)

You say: 'Nobody really loves me' ? God says: I love you (John 3:1 6 & John 3:34 )

You say: 'I can't go on' ? God says:My grace is sufficient

(II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm91:15)

You say:'I can't figure things out' ? God says: I will direct your steps

(Proverbs 3:5- 6)

You say: 'I can't do it' ? God says: You can do all things (Philippians 4:13)

You say: 'I'm not able' ? God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)

You say: 'It's not worth it' God says:It will be worth it (Roman 8:28 )

You say: 'I can't forgive myself' ? God says: I Forgive you (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)

You say: 'I can't manage' ? God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians 4:19)

You say: 'I'm afraid' ? God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear ? (II Timothy 1:7)

You say: 'I'm always worried and frustrated' ? God says: Cast all your cares on ME

(I Peter 5:7)

You say: 'I'm not smart enough' ? God says: I give you wisdom(I Corinthians 1:30)

You say: 'I feel all alone' ? God says: I will never leave you or forsake you

(Hebrews 13:5)

Father, God, bless all my friends in whatever it is that you know they may need this day! And may their lives be full of your peace, prosperity and power as they seek to have a closer relationship with you. Amen.

busy month...

2009-03-09T13:42:00.004+08:00

haih... long time dint sit down and write a blog d...

it is such a busy month,

since after cuming back from Chinese New Year break,

me suddenly become like cow (Mooooo...)

so busy everyday til don hv time to play sports and rest..

My relationship with God is like so far d,

althou i got do my devoltion everyday, but

the busyness of my life pulls apart the range between me and God,

no one here can help remind me bout tis, or pull me back to God..

Sad...

till now onli i realize..

not the projects that makes me far apart from God,

but is the things around me like friends around me

that influence me much,

i really hope i hv a Christian friend to stay with!!

but all this is impossible..

Maybe God wants me to learn something during this 'dark ages' hehe...

dunno??

there are things that i can learn from my friends,

but also got alot of things that i shouldn't learn..

haih..

tat's y sometimes i'll get influence.. =.=

thanks to God, my cousin( Bro John n Sis Suat Ngor) came to malacca

to give me and my team JOF training..

the training reli brings me back to the right track to God,

the training remind me back alot of things...

Hope tis training will be the start of the spiritual movements in campus..

But after the training, i tot i can be happy and relax with God,

the devil din let me go, alot of spiritual warfare goin on among the week,

til me so tired and heavy... So lastly i decided to go back klang to take a rest,

and recharge myself with God..

This coming sunday night me gonna give a training for my team how to use the 4spiritual laws, please pray for me, hope that all with done smoothly and build God's kingdom!!!

SpooKy...

2009-01-16T23:52:00.001+08:00

Whooo...

tis few days our uni hv a scary scary things happening...
onli tis few days..
maybe is da first time happening..

our faculty(da onli one) came some visitors(those so call evil spirits), and one of our pusat computer staff died because those spirits bother her, so sad...

from the history, our faculty is da first building build, and some bangladesh die inside, in maybe also due to our uni is in mountain side plus pull of forest, so those things don hv place to stay when our uni is build. And our faculty now is protect by a powerfull force field created by those so call ustaz-ustaz...

My teacher said that da ustaz use our buses bout 18 bus to fetch them away from our uni, and da ustaz chatted wif those spirits, and they say some of them is still staying in our uni...

And da next day, da floor of our uni every place, every corner, every class is full of those salt, and they say to chase away all those spirits... swt.. make dirty n slippery my shoe onli...

And besides that, my friend last few days also said that when she call her malay friend by phone, she entered voicemail, but her friend heard her voice but weird werid voice, and another time my friend called her malay friend again, her friend picked up, and tis time her friend voice like so weird, and my friend tell her stg, bout a few time my friend call her also sound like tat, but afterthat my friend go find her malay friend, she say din receive her call before, even in her phone also don hv my friend's call records... swt... but she onli can receive my friend's msg onli...

so weird...
so hate those things ( In Jesus name i will cast them away!!! )

May the Holy Spirit will take control of our University...

Give me some suggestion what should i do??
can i do jerico walk??

忘记背后，努力面前，向着标杆直跑。

2009-01-06T21:56:00.003+08:00

新的一年，

新的学期，

新的目标，

虽然没有很忙，可是神给了我一个不一样的挑战，

就是把我心中的这把火（宣教的火）让它加倍的燃烧，也点燃别人的心，更要把这把火保持着然后把它传下去。。。

加油浩智，加油浩智！！

我虽不能，我虽软弱，我虽辛苦，可是我靠着那加给我力量的耶和华，我凡事都能做。阿门！！

哇！！我能写出这些东西，果然我的信心不小哦。。。

哈哈！！

可是，常常老我会回到来弄乱我，让我有时会缺乏信心，弄我懒惰，为自己找后路，等等...

现在我还在找着一个accountability partner，我觉得神也再为我预备着了, 我很期待神的安排.

我也相信神会祝福我来面对我所要面对的挑战...

朋友,不要怕!神知道我们所要面对的,祂也要加倍的祝福我们,神也应须要祝福我们多过我们所求所想...

2008 年的错误当作一个学习, 当作一个教训, 当作一个提醒...

在2009年, 我们一起靠着神迈进这新的一年. 我决定要过着一个令人惊喜, 兴奋, 和美满的生活...

我的提醒: 你们要将一切忧虑卸给神,因祂顾念你们。务要谨守，警醒。因为你们的仇敌魔鬼，如同哄叫的狮子，遍地游行，寻找可吞吃的人。你们要用坚固的信心抵挡他，因为知道你在世上的众弟兄也是经历这样的苦难。（彼得前书5：7-9）

所以我们要 - 刚强！刚强！刚强！

基督精兵 - 前进！前进！前进！

靠耶稣基督- 得胜！得胜！得胜！

Counting God'd Blessing in year 2008

2008-12-26T17:39:00.010+08:00

What is 2008 for you?
Someone said 2008 is a starting of University life year, others said 2008 is a economy crush down year, others say 2008 is everything increased year but salary din increase ha-ha, others say 2008 is a prosperity year because of 8 ‘發’ , and so on so fourth la… But for me, this 2008 is a transformation year for me, is like a caterpillar change to a butterflyJ, ha-ha not physically changes la, I cannot fly but my I can see what God wanted me to be. This 2008 is really an interesting, amazing, challenging, experiencing, and a distinct year, it’s all start from God…

From last two years, although is STPM big exam year, however I was still so faithful to God thru the2 years, and until the big and scary STPM exam is over, God is like amazingly given me this passion to go join a mission trip, at first I thought I wanted to go to China for the mission trip, but still God knows me the most and He arrange me thru my cousin to join this 3 months mission trip named I-youth venture, I dint consider much and just say ok!! And that time I called my friend Joyce to join me along, and surprisingly she agreed... Wow!! … So after that we started with going to JB to be interview, then we started our money collecting. It was a huge amount of money that we have to collect (about RM 2300+), and that time Joyce haven’t familiar with any church members yet, so she dun know who to find to sponsor her, and so I have to collect almost double of the money, it was like crazy!! But by God’s grace, He provided us more than enough, and so we go…

From left: Jared, Jocelyn, Jessalynn, and Joyce (the 4 J)

During this training, there are a lot of activities that we have done, other than class section, we frequently go out to share the gospel with students, strangers…etc. I’m also happy because can learn different ways how to share the gospel, such as magic evangelism, storytelling evangelism, balloon sculpture evangelism and also can have chance to learn how to be a clown. Besides that we also have a lot of fun time together, such as ‘pao’ baking ha-ha, go cinema watch movie, go shopping(City Square JB really lots of nice stuff to shop), and go retreat in a nice nice place. In this 3 month I’ve also face a lot of difficulties and challenges mainly physically and mentally, but these things made me stronger and more experience. I’ve really learned a lot about our faith, and experience God greatness and his guidance through this training. All these things equip me fully before I enter my university, all these things is also in God’s plan.

Entering university life…

When I think back the time when we are waiting for the university’s result, and all of us like make a word of statement said : if who shall ever enter the university with no campus ministry inside, den who shall build one. Ha-ha, that time we are like just referring to Joyce because she is planning to enter UMT at Terengganu, but God’s arrangement is really not like wat we have thought, and I was the one entering the university that have no campus ministry inside, Wah!! Wad a joke that God has made man!! But all this I have understand that it have God perfect plan inside, I have nothing to say thus I just go…

By the way, I’m glad that God have given the course that I’ve dream for, is like a dream cum true n_n. And now I’m studying in UTeM aka University Technical of Malaysia Malacca for Bachelor of Mechatronics engineering. When I first enter this University it was like wow! It’s so new. And when the orientation starts, I’ve found out that ‘Oh My Goodness!!! ‘ , as days past by the flies increases, it was so disgusting, until the speaker and those menteri that gave speech also kena attack by the flies, the worse is few of our student got food poisoning during the week, chan!!! After that torturing week, finally we can start our study d, and I get to know a few new friends… The most pathetic thing is, the only Chinese girl in our course also change away to other university. Ok la, I understand this is a engineering course ma, so is like tat wan loh…

So when days when by, in the first few weeks, the devil really duwan2let me go, and a lot of things were happening to me, such as my handphone got stolen, my room key left inside the room and what a coincidence my room-mate all when back hometown, sick, and all those small problems adding up to make me very ‘fan’ and stress… The most worse part is at the day when I was called to join the MCCC JB anniversary dinner, at the early morning of that day I suddenly got sick seriously, I 泻肚子(diarrhea) and the whole stomach pain, I was strength-less and my friend looked at me like that, I thought he would help me, but he just walk off. I use all of my strength to walk down the store to buy a medicine and eat, after I eat that medicine, straight away I vomit… ohh man!! I saw like I dead fish d… And then I told Set Foon and uncle William bout this, and I was thinking that I won’t be going anymore because the time of the bus is another hour plus from that time, I still haven pack my things yet and I was so weak, they all prayed for me, and ask me if I’m not well then don go. I rested for a while, and after that I put full trust onto God, I said” oh God! If u want me to go, please give me strength…” , after that I stood up, pack my things, call my friend, and I drive to the bus station (because my friend dun know the road to the bus station), that day God like just testing my obedience to Him, I even didn’t eat my breakfast and lunch, and after reach there I have to go to the hotel alone, till night I just only eat a few of the fried rice, I was so nervous memorizing my script, and my leg was so strength-less d… but thank God I manage to share my testimony in front of those leaders and pastors smoothly. Phew.. sweat!... And after that, thanks to uncle Peter brought me to the clinic although I keep saying no need la! No need la! At last I’ve found out that I got 盲肠炎(enteritis)… haih!! That was a painful experience, but it brought joy inside my heart!!

And as for building movements, is still a long way to go, but I admit that is really hard to do this alone, must have enough determination and God power to done it. During the pass days, I’ve go fishing in my Uni (sharing gospel), but can’t get one fish also. Sometimes feel so tired and stress doing it, the devil keeps attack my thought… Thank God for the past few weeks I can join a mission trip with UKM’s team, God fire up my passion once more, and thru this mission trip I can meet another faithful servant of God that same university with me. Maybe is God’s arrangement for me ba… Hope that we can cooperate well and shine more brighter in this university la!!! Gambateh!!

This 2008 is just the starting of me, there are more to come, may God will guide my way thru the rest of the days and years… I’m still waiting and looking forward for how God will lead me…

耶和华是我的牧者我必不至却乏
祂使我躺卧在青草地上领我在可安歇的水边
祂使我的灵魂苏醒为自己的名引导我走义路
我虽然行过死阴的幽谷也不怕遭害
因为你与我同在你的杖你的竿都安慰我
在敌人面前你为我摆设筵席
你用油膏了我的头使我福杯满溢
我且要住在耶和华的殿中直道永远。

（诗23）

oohh wait wait wait... still haven finish yet haha..

Going Pulau Ketam's trip...

it started when my mom called me to share gospel to a kid, den i juz ok lo since long time din go d, plus still can share gospel with people, and so i called up joyce, she seem tired and also interested, and so at last she joining me and my dad to tis small village. When we was departing, in a sudden, my dad said " hey son, u in charge of the praise&worship?", it means P&W+sharing=whole program lo... then i juz replied" ok lo..." then we went down juz like this. It was a evangelical meeting , i shared gospel with my simple magic trick hehe... with the holy spirit working, 2ppl raise up their hands.. thank God!! after the meeting finish, Joyce told me those people have to be follow up, i think n think n agree what she say, tis place should bulid a multiplier from their own people... so the next sat v went there again, but after the gathering finished, then i gethered them up, after that my dad said" hey stop now! stop now! v are going back now! the ship is arived!" i was so angry!! !! But I cannot do anything… and so the next few days I went there to make the follow up…

sat with my dad,

sun with joyce , jityo , and zheng yii,

mon I went alone (lonely~~)

fri suddenly cancel

sat me and Joyce…

and after I went home that Saturday evening, my parents went there for their Christmas celebration, and when they came back home, my mom told me that Siew yun( one of the gal I follow up) take the initiatively to share the gospel to 5 children, althou lastly 2 of them ran away, but I’m so glad that she make her breakthrough herself, and Siew Yen( another gal that I follow up ), she plans to teach tuition to the children and sooner or later she will share the gospel to them. When I heard my mom said that to me, I was so joyful in my heart, because althou the follow up class from 5 people less til 2 people, but at last they can get the vision to share the gospel… lets pray4 pulau ketam la if God have touched u… hope God will use this 2 gals name Siew yen and Siew yun to finish the great commission in Pulau Ketam…

phew…

this Ketam trip reli keep me busy and tired… and so this year I don really hv the Christmas mood much… not like the pass years.. but tis year reli gave me another different experiences, hehe Merry belated Christmas!!!…

and finally…
Return to my University..

Thank God that my parents willing to fetch me back Malacca, and also I accompany my parents and a few of their cg member for a one day Malacca trip. I was so surprise when I entered the town, the building was like suddenly appear there, like I never seen before, before that. The construction here was like building a lego, so fast… and tis trip is a stomach fulling trip, keep walk eat walk eat.. at first we go2butterfly farm, then go eat chicken rice ball(yummy… n_n), go walk around, go eat the popular 蠔煎, and ‘si ham’ then after that only return to my hostel with a full full stomach:)

After when my roommate all came back, I have a feeling in my heart that calls me to stays strong, I’m glad and reli thank God I can get my course mate as my roommate, but hope that I’m not influence by them…

A new year, new semester, a new roommate, new housemate, new subject, new challenge, new hope, new me...

Hope God wil show me more great things in the rest of the years...Amen!!!